melloxxmatt

I've decided life was a whole hell of a lot better before i started worrying and being crazy. All of which started in 9th grade when i got very depressed over my looks, weight, and self worth. I felt I was alone and I hated every minute of it. I pushed everyone away from me and ruined some good chances. I have recently been feeling like this again. I ruined my chances with the best girl I've every met, all because I was being an indecisive asshole. Now shes with a very lucky guy. I could go on and on about how i can't compare to him, about how amazing she is, about how I should've done this or I should've done that, but I don't want to be lik

Spent an hour drawing on muro.... picture disapears -.- of fucking courseee.

I basically came here to rant. Theres this amazing girl Sarah that i go to school with, she is so beautiful and perfect... I have this really big crush on her, and i thought she liked me back. We hung out all the time and i thought she was flirting with me... At youmacon this year, we cosplayed Sebastian and Ciel. She made a perfect Ciel and looks practically identical to the young earl. I however am only 5'2' and have a pretty girlish face... so i didn't make the best Sebastian :/ Unfortunately, we ran into one of her friends that also was cosplaying Sebastian. He is like 6'4' i"d say, and looks so much like Sebastian... He didnt even n